Hello, I wanted, when I was young, to spend my life in scientific research and studies. However psychiatry put paid to that. I wanted to find out how everything worked, how the stars shone, how flowers grew and how the Universe worked. I did not want to be troubled by the problems of building a home, although I wanted one, nor how to buy food or make money. In then end I neither lead the life of an academic nor made huge sums of money. I washed up for fifteen years - true I did quite a lot of teaching in this time, made up solutions and other low level technical work but no science. Then I found work at Kingston University - computers - I thought Programming, mathematics, solving chemistry and physics problems. No... Just loading printers and maintaining a network. True I helped undergraduates in their work and talked to people like Dr Welch, whom I regarded as a top scientist. But no science for me. I was offered money, but not freedom, not to cultivate science as I chose too. I think I missed the point. My psychiatrists have always maintained that they wanted me to get the maximum reward, but their treatment made me poor. If I had been allowed to become the person I had wanted to be I could have become rich. I am very disappointed, I feel cheated out of my life. Its been hell....!!!! Am I free now? Chris. http://www.chrisspages.co.uk
