Hi All,
All of this deep conversation is sobering,
but is all of this belly button pondering really what drives you?
I really do feel that most folks walking the
planet did not follow the original plan they laid out during their youth.
The fact that you were born to rich or
poor parents really is not the case so much as what you do with the gift of
life. Life itself is a terminal illness. I have had many close calls in my life
and several could have cut it short. Having completed both military and
civilian jobs it seems that God has taken great pains not to have me come for a
permanent visit just yet.
Today while driving up the Santa Cruz mountains I had a young lad come into my
lane, lock up his brakes and skid into me head on. This was done on a turn in
the road w/ scenic overlooks of 500+ feet just over the guardrail. Now, like I
said I have had several chances to go to the great beyond, so far the chips
have always fallen my way. I do not live my life regretting the good or the bad
things I may have done. I say this because WE as humans have the capability of
change. If you were a real turd of a person as a kid hopefully you will grow up
to learn that being mean cruel and nasty shortens your life. This kid that hit
me today was only 17 and had a 15 and 13 year old boys riding with him. They
were hotdogging down the road and it cost them. This time no one was hurt, but
maybe just maybe he learned a valuable lesson. I actually felt sorry for him.
He really looked scared. I did the same crap when I was his age and I just knew
when my Dad found out they would be searching for my body. His Dad is quite
likely to kick his ass when he gets home. But, he made it home. No hospital, no
morgue. Blessings counted are just that. I am a firm believer in a god. I could
care less if he or she or them is Jewish, Christian, Hindu or anything else.
I live for photography. But
even more than that I live for my wife, family and self. If by some cruel joke
I lost my eyesight tomarrow, I will have taken my last image. But I will still
teach those that wish to learn and learn from those that wish to teach.
I don’t get to post images here as
much as I would like, nor do I get to review as much. I do not have near the education that many of
you have. Yet in many ways I have had some small amount of success with a
camera. The real love of photography or any great passion is not the final
image but the journey getting to it. I once told a student that going to Yosemite to
shoot the same as AA is useless. You will pass thousands of wonderful new
images on the way to someplace that already has thousands of tripod marks.
C’ya
Les
-----Original Message-----
From: owner-photoforum@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
[mailto:owner-photoforum@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx] On Behalf Of trevor cunningham
Sent: Saturday, February 07, 2004
11:50 PM
To: List for Photo/Imaging
Educators - Professionals - Students
Subject: Re: Life
a friend of mine and i were discussing the concept of
having it bad...one thing that was said that i had to object to was that
"there is always someone who has it worse than you." Not that I
have it worse than everybody else, not even remotely, I'm rather
enjoying life right now actually...but mathematically speaking, there must
exist at least one man/woman/child that can walk this earth (well, they
probably can't walk) with just dignity and affirmation in saying (if they can
speak or rub enough braincells together to think), "Nobody's got it as bad
as me!" The first clue to knowing it could be worse is
location. I generally think that if you live in an industrialized nation
your opportunity spectrum is a little bit wider. Also, if you have time
to think, you have time to do. I remember when i was depressed, the best
thing that got me out of it was realizing that if i had the time to sit around
feeling sorry for myself then i certainly had the time to do more productive
things (so i built an entertainment center...as long as i was going to sit
around in front of the television, it might as well be ergonomically and
aurally pleasing)
...and there's nothing wrong with teaching...in fact,
i can think of very few occupations where you are more free to be creative
(unless you're prepping kids for O and A levels)
enjoy...trevor
On Wed, 04 Feb 2004 23:15:55 +0000 Chris writes:
> Hello,
>
> I wanted, when I was young, to spend my life in scientific research
> and
> studies. However psychiatry put paid to that.
>
> I wanted to find out how everything worked, how the stars shone, how
> flowers
> grew and how the Universe worked.
>
> I did not want to be troubled by the problems of building a home,
> although I
> wanted one, nor how to buy food or make money.
>
> In then end I neither lead the life of an academic nor made huge
> sums of
> money. I washed up for fifteen years - true I did quite a lot of
> teaching
> in this time, made up solutions and other low level technical work
> but no
> science.
>
> Then I found work at Kingston University - computers - I thought
> Programming, mathematics, solving chemistry and physics problems.
> No...
> Just loading printers and maintaining a network. True I helped
> undergraduates in their work and talked to people like Dr Welch,
> whom I
> regarded as a top scientist. But no science for me.
>
> I was offered money, but not freedom, not to cultivate science as I
> chose
> too.
>
> I think I missed the point. My psychiatrists have always maintained
> that
> they wanted me to get the maximum reward, but their treatment made
> me poor.
> If I had been allowed to become the person I had wanted to be I
> could have
> become rich. I am very disappointed, I feel cheated out of my
> life.
>
> Its been hell....!!!!
>
> Am I free now?
>
> Chris.
> http://www.chrisspages.co.uk
>
>
>
"The optimist believes this is the best of all
possible worlds.
The pessimist fears it's true" - J
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